I am a second semester junior, with a recently diagnosed NLD, at a very top college, but I absolutely hate it. I've struggled all this time, but it gets progressively worse as I go along. I am completely uninterested in my classes and I have even grown completely apathetic about my grades. This semester, for the first time, I am not handing in assignments (like reading responses) and have handed my first papers several days late. Come to think about it, I HAVE NOT GAINED ANYTHING educationally in my classes. All it is is reading abstruse journal articles and writing papers. My mother wants me to have a college degree at any cost, but I am not sure it is all it is cracked up to be. I don't want to transfer because I want a name-brand degree and because I am a junior and transferring would mean graduating later (as the other college won't just let me be there for one year). Plus, my parents made it clear that since they've already paid over 30K for me, they want me to finish college and preferably the one I am in now.
I also feel like I've had a small stroke recently after being extremely short of breath for several hours. It is harder to think and it does physically feel like brain tissue has died. Clearly, choosing this school has been a mistake and I paid for my prestige-whoredom. Plus, I have other issues complicating it all and it all looks bleak.