Having a hard time figuring out a career to get into

I don’t have the same LD but, i have LD. You need to go with what your own heart tells you to. In my experience, the easy path rarely reaps great rewards. Only temporary benefit. If you should lose your job that you have now that you quit school for should you opt to quit… Then you lose your job what then? An education is of timeless value on so many levels for sooooo many reasons.

As for this, giving up your life’s major choices to a group of strangers…. bad idea. You may have LD. You are by no means incompetent. This is your life. I know it is hard as LD people often have others telling them what to do constantly as if we are idiots. However, the fact of the matter is, you are able. You can use your abilities in creative ways to make up for your deficiencies. All you have to do is apply yourself. You sound so sincere and kind of sad…. But everything will work out in the end.

Doing what is hard for us, makes us stronger. Embracing the challenges in our life and demanding success from ourselves is what makes us no different than anyone normal. Copping out and quitting when it gets hard for a possibly temporary high is what makes us LD. Making a bad choice has nothing to do with LD. Don’t be so scared. Make your choices, for yourself not based on others. So you make a mistake…. So what? There will still be a brilliant sun rise in the morning and a new day and a chance to try again.

Wow Mandi! =0(** You brought a tear to my eye. Thank you so much for your kind words. I was hoping I would get some sort of response but nothing like that. Thank you thank you! Have a great 4th!

No problem…. Glad to be useful anywhere i can. I understand i know how it is. If it makes you feel better, i did quit school. It was an idiotic thing to do for me personally and i will never stop kicking myself for it. Everyone’s situation is different however.

One doesn’t have to be LD to have trouble making up one’s mind about what direction to go in life. I grew up in a school of sorts, called The Kwan Um Zen School. Lots of ‘normal’ and unnormal people passed through. Some of these people were studying at Harvard or were even professors at Harvard….. Most if not all were unlabeled. I heard the same questions from every single one of them every day. Its part of being human to not know what to do with one’s life. These people were all zen students so thier solution was to sit a half our a day in silence simply existing in the moment. Asking themselves, ‘How can i save all being from suffering?’ and answering themselves, ‘Don’t know’ on every inhale and exhale. This practice helped many of them. But if you ask me how i haven’t got a clue but maybe you want to give it a shot? Or not…. The point was already made. This world is made up of questions and the only valid answers we will ever find in this life are the ones we find within ourselves, as part of the tapestry that is the larger world that all of us are a part of.

How far behind must you really be if such intelligent and brilliant people were just as scared by these questions as you are? Try, not very regardless of what the experts may say.

The world is a huge place, i have had the chance to explore much of it in ways most people never get to. I love what i do now…. I really do… I am a student too. I am actually dyslexic. I study egyptology to be an epigrapher. I read and write in 6 languages and am well versed in the music notation of the modern mestern world and that of ancient greece. I have a large background in soooo many subjects as when i was a kid, no one i lived with in the zen school read me children’s stories…. Most were students or professors. Text books and papers…. All anyone read to me as a kid…. Some answers can’t be found in texts though. For example, the answer to how to live a life that is hmmm rich and full and wonderful…. No one knows how to do it. We all find our own way. Having LD does not exempt one from having to find one’s way as well. Nothing does. Asking such questions of strangers, leaves one open to be mislead. It leaves one hmm… Kind of powerless and irresponsible for their own life. There is no reason accept yourself as you are viewed by others. For example a favorite quote of mine, ‘There are three things man is. What he thinks he is, what others think he is and what he truly is.’ Are you truly in every respect what others say you are? There is no reason you can not be responsible for your own life. There is no reason you can’t do what you can’t do. If it makes you feel better my math bites also…. But guess what! Last week…. I made my theoretical physicist PHD fiance, teach me decimals…. I could never get my brain around those stupid dots…. drove me crazy for years…But thinking about it as a fraction didn’t help…. As a musician, i had to think about it as a pitch instead! As notes literally on a piano!!! I actually had to play my answers to the math problems based on decimals before i could figure out how to write them down and stuff…There is always more than one way to skin a cat. And there is more than one way to have a rich and fulfilling life. But, the only way to be an independent person is to be responsible for one’s own choices. By making them one’s self.

Life is exactly what you live. So if you view it in such an ultra serious light and get all wound up and scared by it…. Well, then you live a life too scared to act…. If you are too quick to act you make a lot of mistakes. There is plenty of middle ground. There is this poem by an anonymous author that is quite helpful to me when i have to think about my life…. I thought i would share it.

The Human Route

Coming empty-handed, going empty-handed — that is human.
When you are born, where do you come from?
When you die, where do you go?
Life is like a floating cloud which appears.
Death is like a floating cloud which disappears.
The floating cloud itself originally does not exist.
Life and death, coming and going, are also like this.
But there is one thing which always remains clear.
It is pure and clear, not depending on life and death.
What is that one pure and clear thing?

I think because i am generous in nature i will answer that for you…. That pure clear thing is this moment and what you are doing right now. Then the next pure clear thing will be the moment after this and what you are doing then. Maybe spending a now moment, without the voices of those who want something ‘positive’ for you is a good idea. Turn off the voices in your head you are soooo used to hearing that put such a burden on you. Let go…. Don’t carry around anything. Don’t carry around a sense of self and other and don’t carry in your mind your ego and it’s insecurities…. Just take a moment, to realize you are as much yourself as you are every person on this planet. Then, ask yourself what your limits are. You will realize you have none until you allow your ego to create them for you. You are part of something huge. You are part of this moment and everything that is in this moment. In this moment, there is no right and wrong. There is just nature….. And the forces that govern it, such as the laws of physics for every action there is an equal reaction…. So whatever you do decide to do in this moment, do it for all beings, including yourself. Not just because the pressure is too much to bear of the constant sniping and quips about your inabilities and your distance away from the finnish line still… Put such noise out of your mind, is the finnish line even real or does it belong to the ego? Ask your inner self the one deaf to all noise from outside yourself what you should do. You may get a good answer, however, your ego may not like that answer…. And a cycle will start….

If it makes you feel better, i believe in you. I believe there is nothing you can’t do. I believe the playing field may not always be level…. However, scoring a goal in a soccer game on an incline when you are taking the ball literally up hill is not impossible. As you are in every sense me, as all humans are connected then i promise you, your life will be interesting and worthwhile. It will challenge you and there is endless crap you will be listening to from others that love you too much to see the damage they do to your ego by droning on and on about what you need bla bla bla… Just don’t listen. You are no less normal than anyone else. If studying is your choice then just study. If not then just work. In that moment that you are just working or just studying you are more or less your actions. So, why let other people decide who you are? Some people believe we live many times. I don’t know if they are right or wrong. But i know, that we go to sleep and wake up every night… So, every day or every life is a new one. A new moment a new chance to find clarity and who you are by doing what you choose to do.

Ahh Happy fourth…. Dank je, and jij ook, schatje! Take care best of luck! Sorry if i sound a bit like i am losing it i am super tired i need to sleep.